Cease To Fear

My mistrust has left me
unable to be subservient
to any who have not
passed through my gauntlet
unscathed, in and out, tenacious
you deemed yourself indeed
but given up, at least in speech
no less than three times now
and I'm wondering what
the truth is in your head
Are you jumping to defend
before I attack?
See, I don't wanna hurt you
I want you to hurt me
give myself completely
in turn recieving
satisfaction exceeding
all physical boundaries.
Soaring, not into escape,
but directly into release
those moments when we both
cease to fear.